I am having such a difficult time switching gears.

I’m home now, I have been for about a day. It’s hard to think through everything I need to do. It’s pretty hard to relate. I had such an eye-opening trip that I kind of need to close eyes a bit.

The struggle now is to maintain the convictions that poured through me this past week. I see now the hand of God, how we works, the potential, and really just how amazing he is. Pictured above is the team of amateaur missionariesand one girl we sung happy birthday to. To a varying degree wwe all didnt know each other that well.

Of course it depends on who we are talking about, because I knew the people from Kent, and I knew one or two of the people from Columbus. But by the end of the trip I was a total wreck, I could barely stop crying and I know I am already going to miss these people. The holy spirit hand picked each and every one of our skills to work well together on the trip. Cigarette smoking was even used to bring closer a few of us, since we regularly smoked and chatted together.

Another way to look at this is by seeing it as a picture of the Body of Christ, utilized correctly. We all did what we could and we did a good job together. We were unified, and you could tell. We were together for a week, but realistically it only took a day or two to start building relationships. By the end of the trip the smoke squad knew just about everything about each other and it was hard to say goodbye.

I hope I get to see these people again soon.

If not, and if by some weird circumstance I never get to see them again, it’s okay. Heaven, I believe, will be like this. Working together with people you love, accoplishing things, loving others, and feelings of significance abound.

By th end I really didnt want to leave. My life story helps me relate with the people there, and I made some friends.

The hard part now is actually working on the present. I know I wanna go somewhere someday and and do somehting for the Lord with my entire life, but for now there is work to do. Lord help me please worry about today instead of “tomorrow”.

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.